Hello, my name is Molly and I’m sharing that…
The other evening, out of no-where, a mood came to me and… it wasn’t a good one. The spiritual journey is a never ending process of purification. Releasing the old and in with the new. At times, it’s without warning. So in this moment, I had a choice. Yes, I wished to dismiss the mood… ignore it… deny it, but… I knew better. So I meditated. I was humbled at what surfaced. Wow… was this a spiritual intervention? As I came out of meditation, I wasn’t quite right. 99.9% of the time, meditation leaves me feeling good, at peace, often bliss. Now, I felt hung-over. Then, like ocean waves, swells of tears surfaced and went running down my face… again and again. I needed to allow the release. To be honest, it reminded me of the Dark Night of the Soul. I’d had mine. It was a night and also a “season”. I, now, wasn’t really prepared to re-experience it. Yikes. Yet, it had a purpose. So as with most things, I gave it time and space. I knew I’d be better for this.
This release felt different than my other releases and at first, I couldn’t put my finger on it. I kept thinking about the 12 steps. I used to run a homeless shelter and the center would host AA meetings. I’ve seen it work and I’ve seen it not work. AA is not for everyone but can help many.
So I looked up the 12 steps of AA online. To be honest, I’d completely forgotten them. As you read these, you will find places where changing just one word might explain a place you are at on your journey. Right now, think loose as you read these. Change words, ponder, discern. And, see if any of these steps cause a reaction in your mind… then in your soul.
- We admitted we were powerless over alcohol – that our lives had become unmanageable.
- Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
- Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God/a Higher Power.
- Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
- Admitted to God/a Higher Power, to ourselves, and to another human beings the exact nature of our wrongs.
- Were entirely ready to have God/a Higher Power remove all these defects of character.
- Humbly asked Him/Her to remove our shortcomings.
- Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
- Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
- Continued to take personal inventory, and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
- Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God/a Higher Power as we understood Him/Her, praying only for knowledge of His/Her will for us and the power to carry that out.
- Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we try to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Well, this is what I can say. I like #12. I’d just change the word alcoholics to others. I struggled with #6 because I don’t feel anyone has defects. We have challenges and opportunities just about every day to evolve and we will when we are ready. Yet, maybe I could change the word from defects to negative to positive energy. And #1 is all about the, surrender.
If nothing else, I chose to write this article to assist me (and us) to think differently. There are great opportunities in these steps. Yet, maybe none of these 12 steps work for you. You can make your own. Or maybe you are just on step one. That, too, is awesome. You don’t need to make this complicated. What I do know is that often the Universe wishes for us to look at things… differently. This spiritual intervention was having me doing just that. This intervention had me thinking on forgiveness and gratitude and in a strange way tied into #8/9.
If you’ve ever attended an AA meeting, they do use some good saying like:
No matter where I go, there I am.
First Things First.
Keep coming back, it works if you work it.
Let Go and Let God.
Serenity is not the absence of conflict, but the ability to cope with it.
Minds are like parachutes. They only function when they are open.
Remember, don’t run so fast that your guardian angel can’t keep up.
KIS: Keep It Simple.
FEAR: False Expectations Appearing Real.
Pain is in the resistance.
It seems to help that they say them in unity, and often as the meeting ends in a circle, arm-in-arm. You can feel the energy. If you have never been to a meeting, see if there is an open meeting in your area. It will be an eye opening experience. Real people, just like you and me, with real struggles. All types. They also have a lot of hope. You will feel a variety of emotions including compassion and humility. I’ve found that when people hear the word, AA, they often ignore or dismiss the word but what if there is a lesson here for most?
I also like the above chip. To thine own self be true. Unity, service, recovery. Yes, that does sound like, life. If Spirit has snuck up on you in the form of a mood, you can run from the intervention but trust that the timing is right and that you are strong enough. I think of my fellow blogger and friend, Millie. She would say, cut yourself some slack and, you got this! So, one day at a time and call upon your sponsor when needed – whether that be an earthbound friend or your guardian angel. Be open to the intervention. It is a Divine one. Let’s get through this together. Thank you for reading!