YES! These two words go together. Yet, you’d think they wouldn’t. Many have experienced and written on, The Dark Night of the Soul. For some it can be darker than they ever imagined and that darkness can linger or sneak back up on them. When I read other articles, they never said anything about suicidal thoughts.
Please know I feel passionate about this because… I lived through it (additional articles are sighted below). A lightworker might have what the Universe relayed to me as a suicide gene in their body. I googled to discover there is such a thing that has more recently been acknowledged by our scientific community. From a metaphysical standpoint, I look at it as cellular memory that hasn’t been cleared, yet. We came here to awaken, remember, clear and allow our DNA to change/expand.
So I asked the Universe, how does one clear this gene? I didn’t hear an answer. Frustrating yet, I felt it would clear on its own, in due time. This is a journey of self-love and healing. It’s a process. Honestly though I wasn’t content due to the gravity of the situation. So if you or someone you know/love has thoughts of suicide, please do take this serious and get help, now. Reach out. No one should feel this way; it sucks and it’s not you (but one might not understand this). Lightworkers do hold a certain remembrance and at times there is this longing to go, home. Then when you add some Earthly challenges, it can feel like it’s too much. Please know that a bad day/week/year/decade doesn’t equal a bad life. Things can and do change and, they can change significantly.
A few weeks later, I received a short message and felt it tied into this topic. Often when I receive a message I am held in the energy so even short messages are profound. So writing/reading is easy and… easy to forget or for it not to deeply resonate. Imagine a loving partner/friend/family member/role mode/angel telling you…
“You came here to liberate, you. Have you succeeded? Or are you still trying to liberate others? Can you decide to stay for, you? Not for what you will do (for others)? For your joy. If you don’t love yourself enough to stay for your joy, then there’s no reason to.” Now, I know. If one is having such thoughts, joy is the last thing on their mind (wanting to just be out of pain). You will rediscover joy again. Please know and trust. This is a step/phase and not the end of your experience/story here.
As lightworkers we feel driven to serve and help others. We just want to love others and this planet and can get pretty focused. Honestly though, we don’t always take as good of care of ourselves. We aren’t always as loving, gentle and supportive yet, we have to. We think and feel driven that our mission is external. First, it has to be internal. We often forget this lesson/step. We can also forget to ask ourselves, are we having fun? If you happened to find this article, you found it for a reason and I am honored you’ve read this far.
If you’re in a dark period, know that it’s serving a purpose. Please though, don’t stay stuck. Also know that this moment has already happened and you’ve already overcome and succeeded. The struggle is in the past. You can let go of it, even though you might not understand that in this moment. Two things I know. The pain will stop. While it might feel all encompassing now, it’s not. And, it’s not your time to go, Home. You’re here for a reason! You’re experiencing this for a reason. I know that you will get through this. I need you. You need you. Others that you haven’t even meet yet need you. Somewhere in you, you know this. So breathe. Right now if it’s tough, your job is to, b-r-e-a-t-h-e. Allow the breathe of life to guide you.
So here is a simple visual that may assist in starting to change the vibration. Let go of despair. Just like taking out the trash. Drop it, toss it, throw it, slam dunk it. Be done with it. Then, reach up and hold on to your halo. Feel the warmth and light. Then feel your wings. The comfort, love, support. Rest if you need to. Rest in the arms of the beloved. Cry if you need to. Scream. Release. Spend time in nature and go slow. Reach out to a friend. Make a new friend. Go to the doctor if you need to -please- God made doctors for a reason.
And… please look around the website and see if any other articles might help in your journey. I write about a variety of topics but all with a spiritual perspective. I’ll mention these two related articles, too:
Thanks for reading and I love you. ❤